12/27/2016
These feelings
are just confusing.
Heads or tails?
Who the hell cares.
Does it even matter—
climbing up,
or falling down
this ladder?
I won't know the difference.
I can't even trust my senses.
So who am I?
I have no clue:
how to feel,
what to feel,
what to do.
I have no clue:
when it will stop,
why it won't stop.
I have no clue:
where it may lead,
who I even am,
and who is at the helm:
steering this vessel
of uncertainty and confusion.