Faded, Jaded

1/6/2024
Faded
Jaded
Utterly frustrated
I toss
I turn
I just can't take it
Shaded
Berated
They say just fake it
Here
There
I'll never make it
Shapeless
Weightless
Full of mistakes this
Patience
Evades us
Am I thankless
You gloat
Showboat
Shroud me in smoke
Suffocating
Nowhere to go
Poking
Choking
Never joking
You win
Your ego
Needs no stroking
Above a fire
In need of stoking
Embers burn
I quietly turn
Cooking in monotonous churn
Maybe one day
I'll wake up and say
Yes, today will be my day
But that day is not today