12/20/2019
snow falls on a winter day, light
the fire crackles and burns
safe and warm and out of sight
we submit to worldly yearns
outside, children laugh and play
you, wrapped in my arms
as we prepare for Christmas day
sirens about to alarm
the evening comes to a joyous close
everyone tucked away tight
low and behold, what few could know
it will be a sleepless night
what wonderment tomorrow will bring
a day for all to rejoice
then five a.m. the telephone rings
with urgency in his voice
we pack a bag and hit the road quick
race to get to your side
should be no surprise, we knew you were sick
can we make it before you die?
we drive all day, drive all night
updates all the way
we know at the end, you'll lose this fight
let me make it, I pray
then 5:23, comes the evening call
to deliver the irrevocable news
still hours away, my mind stalls
void of emotion to lose
over the years, you caused such pain
a mother, to me, you were not
now, there is no one left to blame
with you, died the forgiveness I sought
in spite of it all, I still love you
I've learned to live with regret
I'll never know if you loved me too
a Christmas not to forget