5/9/2023
I know this feeling all too well
the hot blood coursing through my veins
the static electricity clouding my vision
the excitement and chaos racing through my mind
the boundless energy and sleepless nights
no rest is needed when (the gear is) in drive
with an endless tank of gas
I'll stop when the road ends
then and only then will this ride be over
and until then I clutch the wheel
letting impulse guide my every turn
not knowing where I'm headed
yet sure I'm on the path
to where I need to be
I know this feeling all too well
and I know how it ends
what sits just beyond the horizon line
when the road runs out
still, I journey on
speeding toward that which awaits me
where the inevitable takes hold
where hot blood turns to ice
where my vision narrows and dims
where the excitement flattens and chaos subsides
when I struggle to stay awake
and all I can do is lay helpless and hopeless
unable to recall the forgotten reverie
of a time I was truly alive; yes
I know this feeling all too well
and I fear it's here to stay
fire burns bright
every thought ignites into fleeting possibility
a discomfort so great my bones itch
and I can't shake the feeling
I'm supposed to be somewhere I'm not
I ride along, a passenger to my own aimless desires
my ego held helpless and afraid
unsure of what may come next