I Don't Know Why (v2)

7/6/2020
Where once my soul was set on fire
Smoking pyre, choking desire
Flames flew higher, burning dire
My only desire was to expire
Then from the sky, clouds cry
Raining relief, a smoky sigh
For a moment, pain subsides
Enough to know I’m still alive
The highs and lows
Friends and foes
Nobody knows
How far I’ll go
No longer ablaze, not going to blow
Give me this chance, I’m ready to show
You, them, the world below
Let it be known
The earth must burn for life to grow
So here I am
Here I stand
While life may not go as planned
The fire that once consumed this land
Surrounded me: my will to be grand
I now understand
This is not how the story will end
I demand more than this
I’ll make my own bliss
Years of sweat and blood and grit
I’ve waded through shit
Clawed out of a pit
Meant to kill me; not so quick
You don’t know how bad I want it
No rock, no stick
Is hard enough for you to hit
My bones: hardened, skin: thick
Can’t keep me down, a fire’s been lit
Not from without but from within
There is no quit
I refuse! to wait and sit
For something to manifest; while the clock ticks
I’ll make my mark: drive a stake through it
The fire that burned me alive is out
It's now within and roaring loud
No cloud can shroud
My will to be proud
My will to be great, I know just how
Hard it is when you’re forced down
Face in the mud, six underground
Without a shovel to dig yourself out
Your name forgotten: a distant sound
But that no longer matters
Because none of that will stop me now